My Promise to God
A message from A Truth Soldier
Do not be afraid of discovering the truth of the evil doers actions for the truth
is the only thing that will set you free of their evil doing and allow you to fly with
the angels of heaven here on earth.
For earth is heaven and is Gods gift of love to us.
Do not be afraid to seek out the truth
and then to speak the truth.
Fly like an angel of heaven knowing that you have the knowledge of the pure
truth of God with you.
For without pure truth you can never fulfill yourself as a human for every
human needs to love.
There can never be any love without
pure truth in your heart.
So do not be afraid of the love of pure truth for without it you will never fulfill
Existence to reaching your full potential of freedom.
If you do not always seek the truth and
then speak the truth you discover then
you can never fulfill your earthly existence.
As it has always been said.
You can and will find the truth only if you seek it.
If you do not seek pure truth
then you will never discover it.
Then you will be one that believes that
no person can ever always speak the truth.
Many have said that there is no truth.
That truth is relative to ones beliefs.
Will they are partly right but do not realize that truth is absolute and is a
for only the living need truth.
The path to truth is an action, the action of always seeking and speaking
the truth is the absolute truth.
So truth is an action.
If you are not always engaged in the action
of seeking truth then you will never know
the full potential of truth.
For God gave us the freedom to decide
and make our own choices.
God gave you total freedom
and gave you heaven on earth to live and love.
The most important decision that every human
will ever make is this one.
The very first and most important
Decision in your life is.
Do you want to be a good person
or do you want to be a bad person?
If you choose to be a good person then your first realization will be that you
can not be a good person without engaging in the action
of seeking absolute pure truth.
As you continue on your path of truth
you will discover love.
You will realize then soon realize that truth
and love are one and the same.
When you finally find pure truth you will also discover that truth is
always so absolute and always so simple.
You will discover that only lies
and deceptions are complicated.
You will discover that liers are those that have deceived themselves and will
always try to deceive those that are on their path of discovering the
liberating bliss of pure truth and love.
Those that are deceived can not see or ever accept truth because they can
never accept that truth is just so absolutely simple.
Long long ago my wise old grand mother Towsey
told be some very wise words.
Daniel, Always remember that to much
of a good thing is never good”
I have my spent my whole life appreciating those very important and
I then one day realized their meaning
in my vision quest for truth.
If I had not heard those wise words i would of never realized and discovered
that to be whole one has to balance ones life with the understanding of
discovering the truth of both good and evil.
I then realized that if I choose to be a good person and a positive force for
truth and goodness that I had to seek and speak the truth of both goodness
I made a promise to God when I was four years old living in a Catholic
Orphanage in Montreal.
I made this promise as I was hiding under my bed sheets.
All around me in this huge dormitory with church like ceilings all I could
see and hear was the absolute terrified screams of all the little boys.
Every night and every morning I witnessed them being savagely beaten
with huge leather straps and paddles.
I was praying in French with the beads of my rosary going through my
Every time I approached a spacing in the beads, I stopped
and was very afraid to look out from under my covers.
But I had to see and try to understand
the evil I was hearing and witnessing.
I knew that if I showed no fear and always kept very silent and never ever
spoke that I maybe able to avoid the horrific beatings.
Many little boys died at this orphanage.
A mass grave of over two thousand little boys was found in Montreal while
they were digging on the property where the orphanage had once stood.
So that night why I hide under my covers.
I did my very last pray bead ever.
I never again for the rest of my life
did another prayer rosary.
On my last bead I made a promise to God.
I promised God that I will for the rest of my life
always seek and speak the truth
for I realized that truth
was the only thing that would ever heal
my severely traumatized little mind and body.
I spent my whole childhood and adolescent life in absolute loneliness
because of experiencing horrific sexual, physical and emotional abuses
at the hands of people in authority.
In those days the catholic church
in Quebec was the the authority.
I wrote this poem “lonely Window”many years later.
As I watch an infant play,
As I watch a child play,
As I watch a daughter play,
As I watch a son play,
As I watch a family play,
As I watch strangers play,
As I watch friends play,
As I watch and never play.
“Can I come out and play?”
My vision blurs with teardrops now.
As I die of loneliness.
For no one knows I am there….
In that “Lonely Window”
Later I also wrote.
My life’s Education
People in trust.
Have taught me,
The pain of want
The pain of abuse
The pain of poverty
The pain of neglect
The pain of torture
The pain of isolation
And the worst pain of all,
The pain of utter and complete loneliness.
It has been so painful to be a quick learner’
So the next morning I again was awoken by the very loud echoing
screaming of the little boys
and the angry screaming nuns
that were savagely beating them.
I was always so absolutely horrified
by these experiences.
I kept my promise to God.
So that morning I mustered up my bravery
and I began my journey of discovering truth.
I later took a chance and sneaked over to a little boy and I asked his what
was happening and why were the little boys always so terrified.
I asked him why were so many little boy always screaming in fear and had
some many tears every night.
Why they scried all night until they fell asleep.
Why the nuns always beat on the boys that were crying every night.
Why the little boys would wake up in the middle on the night and would
always be screaming in such angonised horror.
I asked him why were thee nuns always then coming in and beating them
so savagely again.
I asked him why was the same thing happening
I choose to ask these questions of the most delicate and gentle little boy I saw.
I realized that this beautiful little boy was always the most horrified one,
and the one that got the most horrific beatings.
This little boy was so absolutely amazed
by my caring and concern.
That it gave him the courage to speak up in a place where we were always
beaten if we ever spoke to anyone.
Speaking amongst ourselves was not allowed and we always received a
beating if we spoke.
But he answered me and it was the only time I ever again spoke to any
other little boy
while I lived at this orphanage.
He told me that all the little boys that screamed so much was because
they were so scared of the beatings from the nuns.
He told me that the little boys were so scared of the nuns that they always
would pee in their beds.
This little boy was the most terrified one of all of them.
He was absolutely so scared to go to sleep at night,
The nuns would scream at him and beat him savagely until he would
As soon as the nuns left the room he scried all night until he fell asleep.
Most of the little boys in this huge room with about twenty beds would
never be able to sleep until he stopped crying.
He was not the only boy that did this. At least ten of the boys would do
this every night and received the same treatment from the nuns.
This little boy was the one one that would always wake in the night
terrified and start crying.
He would be hiding under his sheet and moving around while crying.
I asked him what was he doing.
He told me that he would cry and cry while blowing as hard as he could
to dry his sheets because he was so terrified at the beatings all the little
boys got in the morning for peeing in their beds.
I then realized that I had made the right decision and promise to God.
Then and there and for the rest of my life
I questioned everything
in my desperate search for love
I searched and searched and never found love and understanding
For no one could reach me as I had been so severely traumatized all
through my childhood
that I could never trust anyone.
Therefore I experienced the most lonely existence
any human could ever endure.
I became completely introverted
and reclusive from everyone.
But I kept my promise to God.
I continued to seek the truth
so that I could understand
in the hopes that one day
my tortured soul could heal.
I knew not what truth I sought.
I knew not were this truth was hidden.
But I kept my promise to God.
I tried everything I could to find love and understanding.
But I knew not how to love for I had never been loved.
I knew not how to give or show love
for I had never been nourished with love as a chld.
AS I grew I experienced more savege hatred from strangers as they could
not understand me and rejected me.
I can not continue here now to write more about all the suffering I went through.
So I continued on in my vision quest.
I recently wrote a story called ‘ My Vision quest”
for I had some understanding and experience
as to what our native brothers and sisters also endured while they
too were inprisoned
in the churches child institutions.
I like them had childhood existence filled with pain, suffering,
abuses and sheer loneliness.
I to like them experienced being excluded from normal life and
locked away in institutions
of intellectual horror.
So I kept my Promise to God.
My vision quest is soon coming to an end
as now I am severely injured from having evil doers deliberately
drive a car over in an attempt to kill publicly while making it appear
to be an easily explainable accident.
In keeping my promise to God.
I have become A Truth Soldier for God is the truth.
In my Vision quest for truth I became a very intelligent and
For one that spends his or her whole life always seeking th and speaking
the truth ends up being far more intelligent then those around who
seek no truth and only seeks the earthly luxuries
that greed and selfishness brings.
But I still kept my promise to God of always seeking and speaking
For I realized that there could never be any pure love in my life
without pure truth.
For there can never be any love without truth.
Not realizing this in my life.. I recently came to realize that the
truth and love I always
searched for could only come from God.
For God is the pure light of truth.
I kept my promise to God
and I found the truth and understanding I saught.
I as A Truth Soldier have written and spoken of the truths of the
evils I have discovered and observed while I travelled in my vision
quest to mature as a human.
And this is why they have repeatedly tried to kill me.
For I have kept my promise to God.
NOW I am in that lonely window again and
Live by these words I wrote earlier.
I am in love and I am so happy
I did it, I found my soul mate.
Its amazing my soul mate is so beautiful and perfect.
I can count on my soul mate to never deceive me
or send me in the wrong direction.
My soul mate is always there for me.
We always get along because we are in pure love.
Our love works because its based on truth.
For without truth our relationship would be doomed.
We are never selfish for we always give of ourselves.
In troubled times I confide with my soul mate for support,
I tell my soul mate my deepest secrets and weaknesses.
I don’t fear exposing my innermost frailties to my soul mate.
Its so amazing what strength can be gained from sharing pure love.
Love makes me feel so good that I now can see beauty all around me.
I see it in the flowers and the bees.
I see it all around me in nature.
I see beauty even in the worst of storms.
I see it in other people who are in love.
before I fell in love with my soul mate,
I walked around and could never see the beauty all around me.
I am in love and I am so happy.
This pure love is so strong that I now have enough love
to give even to the sorriest of souls.
Love is so contagious.
Once I got pure love in my life I was strengthen
so that I could now share some of it with
those around me who have never felt pure love before.
This pure love in my life has humbled me so.
I could have never found my soul mate if I had not always sought truth
and always spoke the truth I discovered.
I have been completed as a human with this pure love.
I love truth for without it I would always be lost and deceived.
The more my love grows the more beautiful
my soul mate becomes for love is in the eye of the beholder.
I know that my soul mate will always forgive me if
I am always willing to face and admit the truth of my wrong doings.
My soul mate will always know if I am not being truthful to myself.
There can never be a pure love in my heart if I am not always truthful to myself.
For my soul mates pure love could never reach me if I am not pure in truth.
I am in love and I am so happy.
I love you God for you are the truth and my soul mate.
Please read my related article
‘How to assassinate a cyclist’
if you would like to read a very graphic rendition
of the recent attempt on my life
by organized crime and those in authority.
Because I kept my promise to God.
Please note that the city, province and country I live in has no one
in authority that will investigate or acknowledge anything that has
ever happened to me including this recent attempt on my life in broad
daylight in front of many witnesses. I live in a society where Truth
Justice and Liberty only pretends to exist.